Friday, July 16, 2010

Jaane kya chahe mann bawra…?

Feeling blue…! Don’t know why? Do you ever feel that even after sitting in a group you are all alone? I do…at times! It’s a bizarre feeling. Not at all explainable through words. But, I’ll give it a try. Within a split second, I feel alone, very alone. Sab kuch ho kar bhi, kuch nahi hai.

Zindagi, kaisi hai paheli, haaye? Yup, it is a puzzle which every man is trying to solve. For instance, I try to search my own identity several times. So, what is it that I want? What is it that makes me happy? What is it that heals my wounds? What is it that hurts me? What is it that I love? It’s too hard to answer any of these questions. Am I a confused soul? Maybe, maybe not… Life itself is a roller-coaster. It’s a quite rough and tough ride. When it’s bumpy, it gets scary, agitation falls in, insecurity clouds hover on the top and so on. Nonetheless, when the clouds disintegrate, it becomes a smooth ride. Life is back to being beautiful. BUT, is it really beautiful, or is it just a myth? At times, I feel like, I’m in a dilemma. At this point, I think I have bewildered all my readers. Its okay, as I mentioned earlier, am I a confused soul? I believe the answer is ‘yes’.

I’ll publicly ask this question… what is it that bothers you even when your life is beautiful? Why do you feel alone even when sitting in a group? Or, am I the odd one out here!?!?

6 comments:

  1. Hmm yeah, I know how you feeling and why!!! Read this blog, which answered most of questions: http://jhnmyr.tumblr.com/post/805620978/simple

    Chinki recently pointed out this blog and it was definitely an interesting read. The point of this blog entry was "life is simpler than you think."

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  2. Sometimes, it's anchors. Ever noticed how that particular song makes you think of the other person..? They might've been responsible for your "mood-swings"..they can make u fall into a totally different mood...no matter if u r sitting in a crowd!!

    Sometimes, it's nothing, just human!!..to feel that way:)

    for more on anchor theory : http://sushant-shekhar.blogspot.com/2010/01/anchors-and-nostalgia.html

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  3. What bothers me the most even when I know I am the luckiest person and my life is so beautiful is "Worry to lose any part of my life" the statement which bothers me is "NOTHING IS PERMANENT" Why nothing is permanent....I want my life to go on like this forever(Permanently). I know this insecurity(fear that bad time may come , fear of losing) is negative but then I do think over it time and time again.

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  4. @Rahul, I guess that is one of the biggest negative factor in Scorpions. Always a fear of losing anything and everything. I can't say much about you but as for me, I know I'm a very insecure person.

    Excess of anything is harmful, be it negative or positive. Only if people could understand this simple truth; life would be so simpler and beautiful!

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  5. No you are not the odd one.
    And to reply your question:
    what is it that bothers you even when your life is beautiful?
    for me it is the place I was born. I miss many times despite having life that is good.
    Why do you feel alone even when sitting in a group?
    Vibes missing - maybe childhood friends - The best.
    Likewise each person must be going through few thoughts/few memories which s/he wishes to be present or fulfilled.
    Anyways, Nice Title And nice post.
    Thanks for sharing.
    keep writing.

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